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with..without hope

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without hope
where would we be…
buried under heaps
of rotting despair

without hope
what would we think…
that all is lost
and nothing is gained

with hope
where would we be…
searching for sunshine
and reasons to hold on

with hope
what would we think…
that after every dark night
there’s always rays of light

© Jacqueline

may there always be light at your end 

strange and estranged…

I always thought that I was strange
till I became totally estranged
not knowing when things would change
or if one would become deranged

this is where I am truly me
yet I feared my space for many moons
caught in the mire of an arid desert that bogs us down
getting through each day of life like a clown

with many faces that smile and scares
with glinty tears, recurring fears and frozen scars
forgotten in the sirens of deaths mounting toll
and staying thankful to every lifesaving call

© Jacqueline


…life is never truly sunshine and butterflies

Inertia

My state of being towards my blogging and writing has felt like a butterfly caught in a glass jar, but I guess it can’t be classified as anything other than ‘inertia.’ I have searched for the appropriate words, but they elude me. Every day, making a post has been on my mind and most times, I’ve opened my blog, stared at it, not knowing what to say, I simply close it.

Butterflies In A Jar

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A bazillion thoughts, yet none coherent enough to stay attentive. I wanted to say hello and ask how you are doing? I wanted to say Merry Christmas. I wanted to say Happy New Year.  I wanted to share all my news – unfiltered – with you – and I will.

I need to get reinspired and reinvigorated. Life has had me on a rollercoaster of vicious challenges that sometimes, I feel as if my breath is being slowly cut off, but I will not dwell on such things at this moment. It sure feels good to type again, however, let me pause my typing and go visiting.

My Words Escaped…

zen, prayers, incense

Many times, I logged on, but I failed to say anything. Words milled around in my head, but they couldn’t transport to my fingers.

Where would I start? Is it the fact that I had a heart-stopping couple of weeks when I felt a suspicious bump in my bosom buddy? I was scared shitless!

I wondered about how I would have to start putting my house together and preparing my children for their journey through life without me. My thoughts were morbid. I was seized with fear. The emotions that raced through me were on another level. I couldn’t give words to them lest they took physical form and wings.

The visit to the doctors was nerve-wracking, to say the least, and I won’t bore you with the details, but I must tell you that I did a lot of soul-searching, had leaky eyes, ugly-cried and clutched my beads as I bargained with God.

Thankfully, fate has been merciful. The results came back. My Boobs are well. There is nothing to be alarmed about. Phew!

I felt guilty and not so guilty for having neglected my blog. My mind and heart were not in the right place and I needed a breather to realign myself.

My blog is my second home and I’m quite attached to it to such an extent that I found it difficult to come in and be blase about things when there’s so much going on with me. The connection I have with this blog transcends my ability to describe it and I guess it’s because I’ve invested a lot of my time and emotions into it. Strangely, I don’t have such affinity with other social platforms that I use.

Every day I consciously remind myself of the things that matter and I am learning each day as I journey on my path that the most important lesson – which hammers itself into my cranium – is that every moment we have been given is absolutely precious with a capital P.

I missed all of you.

Little Rant…

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I don’t know if it irritates me or amuses me. Still trying to work out my sentiments. Sometimes, someone would leave a comment that sounds completely odd and far away from your post that you actually have to go back to your post to read it again to figure out exactly what it was that you wrote to prompt such an asinine comment.

Then, it dawns on you that they didn’t read it, but they summarized what they felt you said and made their two-bit comment that makes you wonder, why people do that. Yeesh! I also think that there’s an automatic ‘like’ button that some bloggers have learnt how to manipulate ‘cos I can’t relate with how fast a post gets liked considering that you just clicked the publish button.

What About You? Affirmation Challenge Day 2

Today, I’m blessed with a sound mind. I’m filled with love in my heart for myself and for others. Today, I make an effort to appreciate something about every person that I interact with.Image result for pinterest quotes on love

#positiveaffirmations, #walktall, #findingyou, #be.at.peace, #findinggreaterjoy

Excellent Quotes From Yesterday:

From Raili at Soul Gifts: Here’s my quote for today. I let Louis Hay’s book of affirmations fall open and this is what I got – “I allow love to flow freely. My supply of love is endless.”

From E Leukhardtblog “Life is a roller-coaster. There are ups, there are downs. But you always end up relieved and smiling. Hold on to the safety rail so you can always be smiling. “

From Mandibelle: “Love her but leave her wild” – by Atticus. This one has stuck with me awhile, and when I thought about it I concluded that to be loved but yet “wild” to be our natural self, and not have to be “tamed” or trapped by another, is a good goal in relationships and friendships. Choosing to be tamed by someone you love such as the fox in ‘the little prince,’ is one thing. But having a choice and even finding that within being tamed, you can still be wild and not have to hide your true self is important. To be loved for your wildness — your flaws and your good qualities is the best kind of love. It’s a love that doesn’t control each other or defines each other in a narrow box but allows each person to grow and be themselves within relationships, It forgives and doesn’t try to make someone be who they are not. It’s loving without a need to dictate one’s lover or friend’s behaviour and choices.

From Susieshy45: You are your own best friend- is my quote for today. You know what is best for you. While others are good in the physical sense, no human being can be 100% for you as you yourself.

and a couple of my lovely friends on Facebook joined in:

From Marcellina Oparaoji: Here’s is mine. I so believe in this:

“I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition.” ― Martha Washington

From Chandrima Chatterjee

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P.S. If you wish to join this positive affirmation challenge running for 90 days, please add your quote to the comments and each day, I’ll share everyone’s quote with their links.