For so long,
I have simply EXISTED!
From now on,
I choose to LIVE!
My state of being towards my blogging and writing has felt like a butterfly caught in a glass jar, but I guess it can’t be classified as anything other than ‘inertia.’ I have searched for the appropriate words, but they elude me. Every day, making a post has been on my mind and most times, I’ve opened my blog, stared at it, not knowing what to say, I simply close it.
A bazillion thoughts, yet none coherent enough to stay attentive. I wanted to say hello and ask how you are doing? I wanted to say Merry Christmas. I wanted to say Happy New Year. I wanted to share all my news – unfiltered – with you – and I will.
I need to get reinspired and reinvigorated. Life has had me on a rollercoaster of vicious challenges that sometimes, I feel as if my breath is being slowly cut off, but I will not dwell on such things at this moment. It sure feels good to type again, however, let me pause my typing and go visiting.
Many times, I logged on, but I failed to say anything. Words milled around in my head, but they couldn’t transport to my fingers.
Where would I start? Is it the fact that I had a heart-stopping couple of weeks when I felt a suspicious bump in my bosom buddy? I was scared shitless!
I wondered about how I would have to start putting my house together and preparing my children for their journey through life without me. My thoughts were morbid. I was seized with fear. The emotions that raced through me were on another level. I couldn’t give words to them lest they took physical form and wings.
The visit to the doctors was nerve-wracking, to say the least, and I won’t bore you with the details, but I must tell you that I did a lot of soul-searching, had leaky eyes, ugly-cried and clutched my beads as I bargained with God.
Thankfully, fate has been merciful. The results came back. My Boobs are well. There is nothing to be alarmed about. Phew!
I felt guilty and not so guilty for having neglected my blog. My mind and heart were not in the right place and I needed a breather to realign myself.
My blog is my second home and I’m quite attached to it to such an extent that I found it difficult to come in and be blase about things when there’s so much going on with me. The connection I have with this blog transcends my ability to describe it and I guess it’s because I’ve invested a lot of my time and emotions into it. Strangely, I don’t have such affinity with other social platforms that I use.
Every day I consciously remind myself of the things that matter and I am learning each day as I journey on my path that the most important lesson – which hammers itself into my cranium – is that every moment we have been given is absolutely precious with a capital P.
I missed all of you.
I don’t know if it irritates me or amuses me. Still trying to work out my sentiments. Sometimes, someone would leave a comment that sounds completely odd and far away from your post that you actually have to go back to your post to read it again to figure out exactly what it was that you wrote to prompt such an asinine comment.
Then, it dawns on you that they didn’t read it, but they summarized what they felt you said and made their two-bit comment that makes you wonder, why people do that. Yeesh! I also think that there’s an automatic ‘like’ button that some bloggers have learnt how to manipulate ‘cos I can’t relate with how fast a post gets liked considering that you just clicked the publish button.
Today, I’m blessed with a sound mind. I’m filled with love in my heart for myself and for others. Today, I make an effort to appreciate something about every person that I interact with.
#positiveaffirmations, #walktall, #findingyou, #be.at.peace, #findinggreaterjoy
Excellent Quotes From Yesterday:
From Raili at Soul Gifts: Here’s my quote for today. I let Louis Hay’s book of affirmations fall open and this is what I got – “I allow love to flow freely. My supply of love is endless.”
From E Leukhardtblog “Life is a roller-coaster. There are ups, there are downs. But you always end up relieved and smiling. Hold on to the safety rail so you can always be smiling. “
From Mandibelle: “Love her but leave her wild” – by Atticus. This one has stuck with me awhile, and when I thought about it I concluded that to be loved but yet “wild” to be our natural self, and not have to be “tamed” or trapped by another, is a good goal in relationships and friendships. Choosing to be tamed by someone you love such as the fox in ‘the little prince,’ is one thing. But having a choice and even finding that within being tamed, you can still be wild and not have to hide your true self is important. To be loved for your wildness — your flaws and your good qualities is the best kind of love. It’s a love that doesn’t control each other or defines each other in a narrow box but allows each person to grow and be themselves within relationships, It forgives and doesn’t try to make someone be who they are not. It’s loving without a need to dictate one’s lover or friend’s behaviour and choices.
From Susieshy45: You are your own best friend- is my quote for today. You know what is best for you. While others are good in the physical sense, no human being can be 100% for you as you yourself.
and a couple of my lovely friends on Facebook joined in:
From Marcellina Oparaoji: Here’s is mine. I so believe in this:
“I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition.” ― Martha Washington
P.S. If you wish to join this positive affirmation challenge running for 90 days, please add your quote to the comments and each day, I’ll share everyone’s quote with their links.
You may wonder how important a business plan is for your blog and I must confess that as a beginner I wondered the same thing and I learned this the hard way after dabbling around with my first blog. Having a business plan for your blog is not mandatory, but if you regard your blog – or plan to do so – as a way to earn income, to grow your platform, to showcase your creativity and create a brand, then your blog is your business and creating a blog business plan is essential.
With this clarity on why you need a blog business plan, let’s go into the details of how to develop a simple, smart plan for your blog.
There are certain thoughts that you should have on your mind as you create your plan such as:
The platform (hosted or self-hosted) that you want your blog on – WordPress, Blogger, TypePad, Others.
If you are self-hosting, consider how to get your domain name, how to buy hosting service, customizing and designing your blog and consider what the annual fees for maintaining your blog will be.
What are your three main goals for blogging? Identify them and use them as your focal point.
What will your blog subject focus be?
Who is your target audience and what are the possible solutions that you plan to offer to them?
When a reader visits your blog, what are the calls for action that you want them to take – Subscribe, buy, share etc?
How will you encourage them to take such action?
Search and study your competition. What is it that they are doing that you can learn from and possibly improve on.
How often will you update your blog? Think of your first ten blog posts, develop the content and come up with a list of focus keywords for your blog.
What are the strategies that you will use to increase your blogs’ SEO? Do you plan to run periodic promotions for your blog?
How will you measure your success? Think of the methods that you could use – Google Analytics, Email and RSS subscription, comments, and feedbacks. Read More…
SQUAWK!! This is the silent shrill angry animal sound that has been recurring in my head of late. It seems like my life has been going down the river of late, tossed and tumbled like a flotsam from one tedious occurrence to the other and from three flu-bitten grumpy children to a flu-croaky, grunty husband and now it’s my turn, after nursing them and I must say, I sound pretty croaky. I think my croakiness is more like husky and sexy 😉
Groan! For the last couple of weeks, my blog has suffered as well and I’ve been bingeing on sugary stuff – I comfort eat when I feel low and even though I know it’s not good for me, I still do it. I hiss in disgust at myself but that still doesn’t stop me from gobbling a pack of biscuit chased down with a glass of juice. Meow! I feel like a bad kitty and have avoided the scale like a plague.
On the bright side, silent twitters also ring in my head happily ‘cos I just got a moonlighting part-time coaching job at an institute to prep students for English IELTS/TOEFL exams. I must say that I enjoy the weekly interactions and after 3 hours of teaching the rudiments of grammar, reading, writing and speaking, I come out feeling totally gratified. If the truth be told, this is something that I would do for free – but I need the funds badly.
Okidokey, let me moosey off now and get ready to bleat it – I have a tutoring session this morning with two young and funny Algerian kids who are learning English. See you later alligator 🙂
P.S. Dear Linda, I think I’ve managed to fit in several animal sounds with today’s SoCS prompt – sMOOth – though I suspect that there are many more waiting to be let out.