“Just put a brake on those thoughts my dear lady! Okay, simmer in them a little bit and get all dirty, then put a lid on the steam because you know how dirty it can get when you go down low.”
That phrase above was my sensible mind lecturing the roaming sad part of my mind that woke up this morning looking for all the sad things and dirty thoughts to latch onto so that she can get thoroughly miserable.
A lot of times, the state of mind that we go to bed with determines our waking thoughts and I’ve been teaching myself how to train my mind into serenity before retiring to sleep.
Sometimes, I fail to control the brakes of certain wheels of thoughts that start out innocently by wandering a dark path and before you know it, it snowballs into one ugly, berating predator.
It’s definitely good to think things through but in a sensible manner of mind over matter and not letting my emotional intelligence fall to pieces by allowing my renegade thoughts that can run at break-neck speed lead me into the temptation.
It’s a natural tendency for us to seek out ways of comfort when we are feeling some discomfort, physically or otherwise and my current feelings of discomfort were emanating from deep recesses.
The next pit-stop if I willingly followed that piper’s flute is to either look for food to eat to comfort myself, or get into a tiff with dear Himself – who did nothing to earn my quarrel, or growl at the children and leave them perplexed or watch a sappy chick flick so that I can have some reason to cry over what I don’t even fully understand.
Okay. Enough said. I’m glad I put a brake on the thoughts for now and haven’t done something silly so far. I’m just going to toddle off and give my mind a break. I’m going to do what I call my methodical solution thinking and get to the nitty-gritty of my rotten feeling.
That’s after some good breakfast at least 🙂
Now, I feel kind of better and more proactive. Thank you, Linda, for today’s breaking prompt.
Jacqueline
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I guess we all have those kinds of days sometimes. Hope you’re feeling better
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Yes I am feeling better. I took a nap after mulling things over systematically. Thank you Raili 🙂
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You use such beautiful and interesting language, Jacqueline. And at the same time, your words are easy to understand and relate to. Yes, those dirty, messy thoughts sneak up on me at times. One thing I ask my clients to do, and need to ask myself, is What’s another, more helpful, or more accurate way to think about that? It’s not always easy, but thank goodness we can change our thoughts.
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It would be nice to have a wastebasket by the bed to toss in the ugly thoughts before sleep. Beautiful post.
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I can completely identify with this! Although I don’t tend to get into an argument, I just turn inwards. Which is just as poisonous. It’s amazing, in hindsight, how once we have managed to train our thoughts to happier or more productive matters (or not think at all, and just ‘do’, in my case writing and/or art), then the miseries just melt away. Thank you for sharing!
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I can quite imagine! My writing is my outlet or I bury my nose inside a book 🙂
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I really like the idea that our mindset at sleep plays a role in determining our mindset the following morning. I fall asleep counting my blessings most of the time, and I do usually wake up in gratitude. The weird dreams and nightmares must have purchased their tickets in advance…
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You are absolutely right Joey which is why I try to be calm and serene before going to sleep. It really does play out in our subconscious.
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