Stumbling Forward…personal

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Obstacles. No single existence is devoid of hurdles to jump as they journey through their path in life and these encompasses all living things. The strength of a plant is predetermined from the state of its seed, thus even before we make our grand entry into this World, we possibly started our struggles right from the womb that bore us.

These hurdles come in different forms and in various shapes and sizes. Some knock us so hard on our backside, flat on our faces or at the cusp of a precipice where we are left grasping for release from the clenching holds that threatens to suffocate us to death.

Every human enjoys having a good sense of well-being and in the midst of these trials, a human can literally clutch at straws in the bid to stand upright. They either turn to theย bottle, drugs or the Lord, seeking for strength.

Severe depression and suicide are the end result of a life that finds no glimmer of hope at the end of the turbulence that they are passing through. At that point in time, it seems as if the demons that they battle overwhelms and the only way to end the torment would be to stop living.

I have been in very deep pits. I have battled mental health, mental torture, and depression. There have been points in my life where the misery that permeated every pore of me was a living, breathing pain.

One of the instances, I would briefly share for now is when I lost my pre-term child. Please believe me when I say that the pain is beyond words. I carried this beautiful being inside me, but for some reason that I don’t know, I left the hospital after hours of horrendous labour with empty hands.

Fortunately, I have no head for drinks, no penny for drugs and never felt suicidal. I clung to the Cross and to writing. With every fibre in me, I held on and my husband held me.

God, family, friends, books and writing, have been my greatest support. When I am crossing one of my many rivers, I look up above, I look around me and I look forward. Life is a constant battlefield in our minds and except we personally buffer ourselves and wage an onslaught to find peace, we remain subjugated by these trials.

What I have learnt over the years is not to wait for the boat to get rocked, but to be mentally prepared to steer the boat as it rocks, so that I don’t capsize.

A couple of books that helped me when I struggled through these obstacles are, The battlefield of the mind, Your best life begins each morning, Purpose driven life, Women Of Faith Bible and lots more.

Writing my own books has been a challenge of doubt, of wondering if I am good enough. Of constantly questioning myself about who would want to be bothered to read my words when there are billions of books out there, but you know what, I said to myself, Jacqueline, you may not get it right, you may not be the best out there, but my girl, you are definitely more than good enough.

So that’s another hurdle jumped. Publishing my first poetry book is a positive affirmation that indeed, I might stumble in my quest but instead of the obstacles making me fall behind, they will cause me to stumble forward and give me some fulfilment.

Buying my book will go a long way to support me and clicking to purchase from any of those links will possibly earn me aย commissionย of a few cents, but this is yet another curve in my journey. Finding ways to break through the obstacle and earn from the sweat of my brow.

ยฉ Jacqueline Oby-Ikocha

Obstacles, The Discover Challenge

 

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29 thoughts on “Stumbling Forward…personal

  1. Can I just say that never in a million years would I have thought you have gone through as much as you have done. You have experienced pain and suffering. I’ve always had an impression of a strong woman from you and I applaud you for sharing your experiences as this shows mental health issues are not a weakness :0 xx great post. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    • Dear Daisy, thank you for your words. The truth is that mental health and stress is not a weakness of any sort and can affect anyone. It can be brought on by harsh reality or chemical imbalance, it all depends on the individual. One thing is that all the adversity was embraced with positivism actually strengthens the individual. I appreciate your kind words ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. There is something glorious that happens to a spirit that has been challenged. It is reflected in you, and in all that you write, Jacqueline. Be proud and thank you for your constant candor, and for sharing your stories. Onward…โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ’› ๐Ÿ’™ ๐Ÿ’œ

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  3. I am so sorry to hear the sorrows you have endured Jacqueline. You are a shining example of inner strength, resilience and determination. I admire how hard you have worked as a blogger and writer, with your recent achievement of 1000 posts and now your self-published book. Congratulations! Thank you – you are an inspiration to me.

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  4. So stinkin’ proud of you…I can’t say that enough. My heart breaks for your loss. Your strength and determination has helped you get this far. From where I sit, I see great things in your future.

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  5. We are told in the Bible that Jesus was tempted as we are tempted; therefore, we are encouraged to know that we can overcome as He overcame. It is helpful to your readers to know that you have seen many of the same struggles that they have and you were an overcomer. May that knowledge be of benefit in the marketing of your book. You don’t just talk the walk, you also walk the talk. Congratulations on having reached this goal.

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