I see you around the corner, the likeness of your eyes in the eyes of a total stranger down the shopping aisle.
It startles me.
I see you in everything that I look around me.
In the random formation of the clouds.
I sometimes see your wise eyes peeking through and winking at me.
It gives me joy.
I hear you in my thoughts. Your words of wisdom, of love, of encouragement
Are etched upon my soul.
They keep me warm.
I hear you in the music. The music that you loved so much, that I grew up knowing that love.
They sounds of music comfort me.
I see you in my little boy’s face. Sometimes, I stare at him so hard, as I seek tell tales of you written in his genetics.
It leaves me amazed.
I see you in the hands of a gardener pruning plants, in the gentle waves of a blooming plant, you loved all things green and they did so well in your hands.
It makes me smile.
I feel you in the drumbeats of my heart, because you are me and I am you. Everyday, my thoughts dwell on you, for in every little thing I see you.
I visualize you looking on from high up and I wish my hands could stretch up so high to give you a hug.
I get some comfort from the warmth of the Sun, telling my mind that you are with me.
In the smile, in the laugh, the stare, the walk, the phrase in a young child’s face.
I catch myself holding one-sided conversations with you and your imagined responses prompt me to sigh, to laugh and to cry.
I see you.
In everything that I am.
To you my dear dad. Always.
Yesterday was World Cancer Day, I lost my dear dad to Cancer two years ago. Sometimes, the pain is just so raw that it clogs my chest and my throat. He was a very lovely human and a fabulous dad. If there is one ailment that I could wish away from the World, it would be Cancer.
To those battling The Big C, may abundant Grace and Strength remain your portion. We will beat it. Blessings.
© Jacqueline Oby-Ikocha