Since You’ve Been Gone…

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I see you around the corner, the likeness of your eyes in the eyes of a total stranger down the shopping aisle.
It startles me.

I see you in everything that I look around me.
In the random formation of the clouds.
I sometimes see your wise eyes peeking through and winking at me.
It gives me joy.

I hear you in my thoughts. Your words of wisdom, of love, of encouragement
Are etched upon my soul.
They keep me warm.

I hear you in the music. The music that you loved so much, that I grew up knowing that love.
They sounds of music comfort me.

I see you in my little boy’s face. Sometimes, I stare at him so hard, as I seek tell tales of you written in his genetics.
It leaves me amazed.

I see you in the hands of a gardener pruning plants, in the gentle waves of a blooming plant, you loved all things green and they did so well in your hands.
It makes me smile.

I feel you in the drumbeats of my heart, because you are me and I am you. Everyday, my thoughts dwell on you, for in every little thing I see you.

I visualize you looking on from high up and I wish my hands could stretch up so high to give you a hug.
I get some comfort from the warmth of the Sun, telling my mind that you are with me.

In the smile, in the laugh, the stare, the walk, the phrase in a young child’s face.

I catch myself holding one-sided conversations with you and your imagined responses prompt me to sigh, to laugh and to cry.

I see you.
In everything that I am.

To you my dear dad. Always.

Yesterday was World Cancer Day, I lost my dear dad to Cancer two years ago. Sometimes, the pain is just so raw that it clogs my chest and my throat. He was a very lovely human and a fabulous dad. If there is one ailment that I could wish away from the World, it would be Cancer.

To those battling The Big C, may abundant Grace and Strength remain your portion. We will beat it. Blessings.

Β© Jacqueline Oby-Ikocha

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42 thoughts on “Since You’ve Been Gone…

  1. Hi Jacquie,

    Awww, accept my heartfelt condolences.

    I know what you mean, there will always be reminders of the wonderful memories that make our hearts ache for loved ones who have passed away.

    I pray Cancer can be cured once and for all, it’s such a vindictive disease that greedily takes both life and a reason to live from the afflicted.

    Please stay strong, your daddy is watching over you. πŸ™‚

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  2. So sorry that you lost your father two years ago, and I agree completely if we could cure all cancers, this world would be SO much better!! My heart longs for you, I hope you find strength and encouragement in sharing his story and his life in a good way today. πŸ™‚

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  3. I feel like I’ve gotten to know your dad fairly well through your writings. I feel your loss…2 years was not that long ago. Continue to keep his memory alive, no doubt he’s definitely proud of who you’ve become!

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  4. Thank you for your beautiful poem and thoughts on your special relationship with your dad. You were blessed to have such a wonderful man in your life even though it was cut short. Continued blessings to you and your family.

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  5. Absolutely beautiful poem Jacqueline – and the inscription on the photo too. I’m very sorry for your loss but very happy for you to have known such a wonderful father and to still feel close to him in memory and in your heart. Best wishes to you and your family, Colette

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