The Spirit Of Doubt…personal

Waking up with the spirit of doubt trying to invade my mind is not my idea of a fun way to rise in the morning. This spirit of doubt was implanted by events outside my control, which affects a member of my loved and extended family *unfortunately, I can’t disclose nor breach their confidence, but nonetheless, this issue weighs heavily on my mind that I found myself entertaining seeds of fear and worry.

Fear and worry add no value, but rather, they take away from the person inflicted by the noisome presence.

They are like creeping plants that grow so fast and try to smother everything good along the way. I am still a fledgling Christian in the sense that I cannot lay claims of having it all sorted out spiritually, but I am so grateful that I have matured enough in the spirit to always remember that God gave me the spirit of love and of sound mind and not of fear.

It may sound juvenile to some, but please believe me, when I say that I deliberately started recounting the positive things of just the previous days and not only did I drown out the voice of fear and worry, but I experienced such upliftment inside me.

The Spring break is over and we are back to the hustling shift of rising early, school runs and what not. I am so grateful for my children and the beautiful time spent together.

My babies are growing up, enough to slap gooey peanut butter sandwiches together, to flip pancakes and make light breakfast for themselves so that their mother can get a little extra lounge time in bed.

For a beautiful, caring soul in my husband who showed me lots of surprising sweet spots through his concern and ministration to my needs these past few days and brought loads of laughter to my lips.

I am thankful for Grace. Grace not to wilt in the sight of pressure. Grace that has stood by my loved one in their trying times and lest I forget, I am thankful for earning my first 34 cents in this blogging space as well as the sustenance to keep at it and not to lose focus.

A lot of times, life brings temptation that seems quite burdensome, but if we keep our face up, the load will slide off our shoulders.

I hope that you are thankful for something today. You can join Colline’s  or Maria Jansson gratitude challenge platforms.

© Jacqueline Oby-Ikocha

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21 thoughts on “The Spirit Of Doubt…personal

  1. That is quite some list Jacqueline. You’re right, fear sucks strength and light and goodness out of us. What a lovely way to restore your Self. sending you lots of love and blessings. Hope your loved one’s burdens will be lifted.

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  2. Yes, I have to re-ground when Mr. Doubt comes knocking on my door. It happened to me too the other day. But was able to send him packing fairly quickly. I think it’s wonderful when we can name it, and find a way to look at why we don’t need to include doubt in our lives when it comes knocking. which it will…after all, we are human. Have a lovely day. Alexis

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  3. Without dark, there is no light. Without night, there is no day. It’s the same with doubt, you can’t have hope without it. Otherwise, your faith is blind. Rock on.

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  4. You write so well Jacqueline. I can feel the sadness, hope and rejoice through your words. Remember that God only gives good gifts to his children. Seek wisdom from the throne. Good post.

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