I know all that I want to say;
There are drafts, lots of them;
The words are not lacking at all;
The ideas are bounteous and overflowing;
Yet I have no words to say anything;
Because I am heartsick!
How do you heal a sick heart?
How do I get my happy again?
I know the words in my treasured Bible;
I know that they comfort me;
I ask for a silver lining in this dark cloud;
But I see nothing; not yet at least;
Is it under my bed?
Maybe I should take a look!
Is it in a bottle?
I have no head for such!
Is it in prayers?
A heavy heart, all I do is sigh!
In the pages of a book?
My drifting mind goes here and there!
Where is it?
But still my heart sickens within me;
I feel empty like a hollow drum;
And I hate to feel this way;
Or to have a pity party;
It is said that time heals;
I think time just covers the sores;
Of oozing wounds;
But the scar tissues are left behind;
To remind us of the battles behind;
I try all the positive pick me ups;
I do hate to be in the doldrums;
I stuff myself with sugary bites;
Hoping to find some delight;
Yet nothing seems to work!
At least I can try to write the pain away!
How do you heal a heartsick heart?
Does anyone know?
Because this struggle is real!
I am human not machine;
I feel things like every other like me;
Despite the upbeat state of mind;
That I choose to maintain;
Sometimes, the pain is so real
It consumes your entire being;
You cannot seem to think of anything else;
The laughter is forced;
The companionship is wanted and not wanted;
The placation placates and annoys;
Your feelings are all twisted and upside down;
Sometimes, I wish that it is easy to stop feeling;
To become an Island and create a buffer around your heart;
That way you loose no one and you feel nothing;
But that would be a sad waste wouldn’t it?
The struggle is real!
Some may think it is a show of weakness;
To wail and to seek for help;
But I know that I don’t have all the answers;
Neither do I care for toughies who know it all!
Tell me; how do you heal a heartsick heart?
P.S. When the grim reaper deals a blow; Someone must be left grappling with the wicked show!