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Dylann, why? I ask…

Dylann RoofI sit here staring at my laptop, trying to finish the story that I am writing but I simply can’t. It is not that I don’t want to, because I believe it will make an interesting read, but just that the sadness I feel at the moment almost makes it impossible for me to think of any other thing, other than the thought that consumes my mind.

I am perplexed at the senseless killing of nine people in Emanuel African Methodist Episcopal Church, in Charleston, South Carolina. I do not know these victims in any way, but I hurt because they are humans just like me. I hurt at the way innocent lives were cut short. I hurt over the fact that a House of refuge and prayer was turned into a grizzly house of horror.

I pulled up the photo of the suspected perpetrator and spent quite some time looking at his young face, trying to decipher how one this young could bear such amount of hatred, bitterness and racism in his heart. Trying to decipher how he could have sat for an hour in the aura and midst of these people and still shot them in cold blood?

Was the preaching not to his liking? I questioned no one in particular.

What could have triggered  premeditated murder such as this? No answers yet.

Twenty one years ago was just 1994, so it is very logical to assume that neither did this young man participate or benefit from slave trade, nor did he fight in the civil war. He was not born during the time of heated racial movement, except for recent sporadic police killing; so what could be his vexation? I am struggling to deduce what could be in the crazed mind of this young fellow.

If my little knowledge of American history serves me right, it has been more than a century and half that the civil war and slavery ended on the soil of The United States of America, yet happenings in recent times makes one begin to question if the racism existing in this vibrant nation does not portend far more danger than it is being glossed over to portray. It does seem for all intents and purpose that the black race is an endangered species in The United States of America. Slavery ended ages ago, yet the ghosts of slavery and second hand citizenry lingers on, consistently raising its rancid and ugly head.

I question what precepts and perceptions he was indoctrinated with. What kind of nurturing did this young man have; what could have transpired in his life and heart to arrive at this juncture? Is love so dead to some people that cutting down lives of other people becomes a mere pastime?

He has not only shed innocent blood, but he has equally broken the hearts of so many; and I dare hope his families own too by his actions. He has injured even those who look on from afar.

Why is racism feeding fat in America?

Are there any scientific or biblical proof that one race is really superior to the other?

Does any human have other elements flowing through their veins other than red blood?

Are we not all mortals who live and die at some point in our lives; or are some privileged not to die in the way known to man?

Forgive my ramblings, but I ask these rhetoric questions in sad wonder at how we got it all wrong.

May perpetual light shine on the departed and may their souls rest in peace.

© Jacqueline Oby-Ikocha

Hatred, ignorance and greed are killing nature and hatred always hurts the hater most“. Masanobu Fukuoka.

 

 

 

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You”ll be dead by summer…. Day 4 – Blogging 101

20150707_131159Following the blogging 101, day 4 assignment “Who is my target audience?”, I started this short, 2-part story, for you, my target audience.

For those who like a good story told and re-told:

“You’ll be dead by Summer”, the gypsy chiromancer whispered bluntly as her firm hold of my palm slackened, and her thumb ceased the feather light caress of all the lines which were indelibly etched into my palms.

For a few seconds, her statement did not sink into my senses and I just stared at her in a befuddled manner.

“What the f**k”? my friend Carlos swore heatedly, pushing back the rustic wooden chair he sat on so forcefully that it fell over with a clatter. “You are a loony bin”. “Let’s get the hell outta here, Luc”!

We hurriedly left her gaudy domain, all four of us. Jumping back into Ma’s car, we zoomed off to the mall, even though the tinkling sound made by her hanging chimes which swung in the slight summer breeze kept ringing in my ears hours later and something that had been sought out, just for laughs fast turned into a source of discomfort.

Summer was almost upon us and I could hardly wait for the break to begin. The days were getting longer into the night; there was more time to stay awake and less time to sleep. I had worked extremely hard in school for my exams and finally the results were rolling in with accolades. My STAR assessment had come out with advanced glowing commendations and my SAT’s had been cleared. I even secured an admission into my school of choice: Texas A & M where I would be pursuing a degree in Mechanical Engineering.

Who would have thought  it! I was the first in my family to break from the mold. Others had settled for hours of odd jobs here and there, living from one pay check to the next, or earning meager wages under the table, just to keep body and soul together. I did not want to live like that. I aspired for greater things. I wanted to be someone worthy of note.

I wanted to have a real job, a real home without sharing my bed and bathroom with a dozen people or more. I did not want to have a home that was a thoroughfare for drifters coming into town, in search of greener pastures. Not that I have anything against Papi or Tio for helping the extended family, it is just that sometimes, it was a little too much. I always felt that Papi was taking a risk by allowing all those people to use his Social Security Number to obtain work. There were far too many Alejandro’s using the same SSN. More than I cared to know.

As we cruised down the highway in Ma’s small Honda, with loud music blasting from the speakers of the small car, I could feel the zing in my bloodstream,. It was prom and graduation season; summer and fun time. I knew that my parents were saving their Tax returns to buy me a car as a graduation gift. Finally, I would have my own wheels. A truck hopefully.

I could picture nice sunny Summer days at Galveston beach with a cold beer in my hands and my ass planted in the sand. Hopefully, with Sophia, my new crush by my side. Taking a puff from the cigarette that we passed around, I quickly stopped at the new gas station, to refuel. The price was slightly cheaper by a few cents and the change could be used to buy some smoke.

Then, Kevin saw the clairvoyants shop and we decided to step in, just for fun.

To be concluded next week….

© Jacqueline Oby-Ikocha

 

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Drop in the Ocean

A lovely poem from a respected Poet and writer, Philip Craddock. I love his use of words and there are so much more where this came from. Take your time and check out his blog https://philipcraddockwriter.wordpress.com. Hope you get to enjoy his articles as much as I do. My best regards to you.

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Over 7 billion people but only one me.
Each life but a drop into an endless sea.
How insignificant will my life be?

Can a drop change course of the ocean?
Suggestion seems such a strange notion!
Yet your drop isn’t water – it is magic potion.

A drop can cause nations to rise and fall.
Can draw lines on a map and claim it all.
Can summon soldiers who’ll heed its call.

A drop discovered a new species under waves,
others sent last of the dodos to their graves.
Another brought liberation, freeing slaves.

Your drop holds within it unlimited power,
grows larger and larger hour after hour,
add a dash of dreams and watch them flower.

As I prepare to change course of the ocean next to you,
just think on how much magic your one drop can still do.

Copyright © 2015 Philip Craddock. All rights reserved.

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No color for these young ones….

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It was a pleasure to sit and watch my youngest and his team mates work together during their field day in school to eventually come out tops in their little unit with several points ahead.

The previous night, he had been sniffling with a touch of cold and like a mother hen, I had fretted that it might get worse and that he may not be able to participate in his field day and he kept asking for my assurance that he would be fine, so that he can support his team to do well. Well, thankfully, mummy the magician did her best, and here we are.

Amongst that cell of small human bodies, I saw excitement, I saw camaraderie, I saw joy, I saw teamwork and cooperation, but with my jaundiced eye as an adult I also saw black, white, olive and everything in between.

A lot of shrieks and squeals were associated with each score or loss, tugs of war were won and lost, a tear or two shone in bright eyes, but above all things I saw love.

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No dissension of voices did I hear, no untoward discrimination did I perceive nor segregation did I observe amongst these young ones. They all supported each other to achieve common goals. I saw bonding and friendship built possibly to last a life time, who knows?

If only we, the adults will hold our peace and not pollute the minds of these little ones, who in their simple-minded innocence are accepting of each other as equals without differentiation.

I remember back in the days when I was growing up as a young lady in the Eastern region of Nigeria, a community of fiercely traditional but hardworking people, I had dared to deviate from the norm to date a non-black gentleman.

I can still recall the askance attitude of supposedly concerned citizens, the gradual sidelining of some so- called friends who had felt that association with me would automatically taint them, the furore that had been associated with my boldness and the rottenness of my behavior for having the audacity to publicly date a white man and the pretentious support of two-faced friends who helped to stoke the fire of my dare-devil reputation; but in all that, what mattered most to me was how I was treated by whoever I chose to date.

It was more important to me to be cared for and respected by the man I chose to date than to fit into a miserable relationship for political correctness, so as not to rock the boat.

I came to realize that those who sought to mold me into their idea of where I should fit in, did not in any way contribute an iota of positivity to my life, nor was their effort done because they sought my happiness.

I got to understand that most time’s, achieving greatness and living your life to the fullness of its capacity, meant ignoring some naysayers, pushing boundaries and adamantly refusing to fit into the round holes created by the limitations of other people’s expectations and simply remaining a square, but happy peg.

I look back in wry amusement and ask myself if I would I do the same today, assuming the clock was rewound? Oh yes! In a heartbeat! I have not changed much in the broadness of my thinking but have matured enough to cut off any foolishness and distracting noise that drains my energy. I choose to live generously and my generosity starts with me.

Life has taught me that the best people in life are not based on their race or otherwise. They are just humans who seek to give their best, changing the World around them in their own little way positively, one day at a time. They are not occupied in segregating their World in little batches of color for reasons better known by them.

Now for my progeny, I will encourage them to see and treat all men as equals. I will encourage them not to  see in absolute colors or to be color blind, but to look for the fine shades of gray and pastels in between because that is the way the creator chose it to be; the beauty is in the variety.

© Jacqueline Oby-Ikocha

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Reliable Secrets For Writing an Amazing Bestselling Book

A book from a senior blogger, whose articles I enjoy immensely. I am sure The Secret Place will be one of those books that you will treasure on your bookshelf.

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Tree Top..

If the tree could speak, what would it whisper, I ask?

Would it utter sweet words of comfort to the birds that nest’s in the shadows of its branches?

Would it chuckle at the antics of little furry friends who keep it company, scurrying and swinging from one limb to other?

Would it weep in utter despair at the reapers who harvest from its bounty of logs leaving no spares?

Will it gnash its gnarly vines and branches in utmost arrogance at those who strips it bare of its bark, exposing her to the

frigid elements or furnaces of hot rod melting degrees?

Would it look down in fondness on the young child swaying in a handcrafted swing tied to its boughs?

Will it welcome a tree house with the young boy and his friends who have found a resting place on its branches;

Listening in to their boyish dreams, adventures and antics, whilst swaying in agreement or caution?

Would it be benevolent to nimble ones, who brace its sturdy gait in search of succulent fresh produce?

Would it willingly offer its shady tops to the worn out laborer?

Or the secret lovers who meet under its shadows for a little tête-à-tête?

If a tree could speak…….

Tell me my friend, what do you hear?

Jacqueline Oby-Ikocha

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The Journey

Olanna would not let the attitude of the obnoxious immigration officer get to her. Her excitement was brimming over and in her state of joy, she did not mind parting with the cedis that she had left on her; she did not think that she would be needing them very soon.

Passage through the Lagos-Badagry border was known to be stressful and she couldn’t wait for the clearance of customs and immigration controls to be done so that they can continue their journey. The seven plus hours form Accra to Lagos had been hectic but was gradually coming to an end.

The bus had trundled assuredly through the West African International road route, only stopping for short breaks, to refuel, and for border control between Togo and Ghana, but through the entire trip, she seemed to be floating in a bubble of good tidings, flipping through various copies of bridal magazines that she had purchased in Accra.

She daydreamed of her wedding which she felt sure would take place in a couple of months and was finding it difficult to settle on the style of gown that she would like to wear on her big day.

Should I have a ring bearer, a flower girl and ladies-in-waiting she mused?

Should it be an intimate wedding of just close family and friends or should I allow Mama to have her way and invite all and  sundry as she is bound to do once I announce the forthcoming nuptials?

The should I’s were numerous but she had a firm belief that Philip would be happy to go along with her choices. He always wanted her happiness, which was why he supported her trips to the West Coast to purchase fabrics for her business.

This good news will definitely prompt a long awaited romantic proposal. After so many years of searching for employment, securing a stable job in a top oil and gas company would be a welcome change from the hustle of her budding fashion business. Sometimes the hassles were so much that she wondered if the gains were worth the trouble.

Not allowing any negative thoughts to form in her mind, she opened her bag and extracted the slip of paper which she looked at so lovingly.

So engrossed was she in her thoughts that the last few hours spent crawling through Lagos traffic passed blissfully and in no time she alighted the bus stop at Ojuelegba.

She hailed a taxi and after some back and forth haggling over price, they settled on an agreeable figure and the driver sped off to Philips house.  She couldn’t wait to see the surprise on his face when he comes home and finds her.

He expected her back on Monday, but her news precipitated a shorter trip.

Madam, we don reach Eric Moore flats o, the driver alerted her.

Ah! Okay. Just move small and stop behind that car over there, she instructed.

It was now dark and the drone of all the generators from the different apartments made an already balmy evening a notch warmer. She paused when she saw Philips Nissan Altima parked in its usual space. Based on their conversation, she thought he was meant to be on call at the clinic till late evening.

No matter! She thought to herself. He will still be pleasantly surprised to see me and best of all when I share my news with him, I bet we wont sleep this night out of excitement. Smiling to herself, she tiredly climbed the several flight of stairs to his apartment.

Taking her copy of the entrance key; which she had managed to obtain after a lot of cajoling, she let herself into the place she was growing to call home.

The light from the plasma TV which was on, provided the only illumination in the living room and music was floating down the hallways from the direction of the bedroom. It was welcoming.

Slipping off her heeled sandals in order not to alert him, she tiptoed over to his room.

The husky incoherent whisper filtering through the crack of the doorway caused her to falter for a brief moment. However, her curiosity got the better of her, thus with a thudding heart and sweaty palms, she pushed open the bedroom door.

An involuntary gasp escaped her lips as she stood transfixed, trying to assimilate the surreal display in front of her.

She gazed in amazement as her Philip, the man of her dreams, her future husband and the father of the unborn baby nestled in her womb was speaking gibberish whilst an unknown man was crouched over him in flagrante delicto. She literally felt her heart shattering painfully into little bits.

The squeak of the opened door had attracted Philips attention and glancing over his shoulders, he saw Olanna, his girlfriend of four years and five months rooted in the doorway in a state of shock.

The interlude had been rudely interrupted and as he shrugged off his sexual partner in order to pull something on, Olanna whirled on her bare heels and rushed out of the apartment; hot tears cascading down her cheeks.

Blindly, she rushed down the stairs, missing a step in her hurry.

Her body lurched forward in a drunken stance, spilling down the concrete steps with thuds and bumps until it finally came to rest on the landing. Her broken body at an odd twisted angle.

Jacqueline Oby-Ikocha

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Snippet of Faith

Call me an eavesdropper; and yes, you just might be right.
I love to people watch and listen to random conversations of total strangers.
I simply find the ebb and flow of human voices a comfort and sometimes an abstract diversion from
a heavier thought process which can tend to clog one’s mind at times.
So! I keep my ears open; listen in, with as little intrusion as possible, and the snippets of
shared chit-chat and views paints a far more vivid picture in my mind, adding or detracting from the
vibrancy of the persons physical appearance.
This brings me to the little conversation I overheard yesterday in a beauty supply shop.
I had finished picking the few items that I needed and headed to the counter to pay. There was a little
queue of women and I took my position on the line of the second counter.
A senior Asian lady of undetermined age at the start of the second queue seemed unsure of her
choices and was taking some time to ask the cashier a thousand and one questions.
I must confess, the little impatient imp in me got a bit irritated and I rolled my eyes in exasperation
wondering why she would choose to make everybody wait whilst carrying out a pre-purchase
survey.
As this went on for several minutes, the ladies in front of me chose to move to the other
counter which was flowing pretty well. I was now directly behind the lady (out of my own choice)
and thus, became a willing eavesdropper and observer.

If I had been asked to place her age, I would have put her age bracket around mid-fifties. She was quite compact without any excess pounds sitting on her slight frame. Her short halo of hair was colored a rich auburn though the greying
roots were showing. She was dressed in a black Capri pants, paired with a cotton floral top and black ballet flats. She looked
well put together and did not have the appearance of someone who was unsure of herself.

And so they carried on with their conversation:
The lady: Are you recommending this shampoo, conditioner and coloring product based on
customers experience or as a personal preference, she asked in her nicely accented English?

The Store Attendant: Well Ma’am, I have used these myself and they turned out okay, she
responded, in a tone laced with resignation.

The lady: You know, I am worried that my hair will start falling soon, so I am being a bit more
careful with what I use these days, she said.

Well, that statement drew my eyes back to her hair, and rightly said, they were thinning right in the
middle.

The Store Attendant: We have multivitamins that help with hair growth, I can show you
some of those if you like, she inquired?

The lady: I can’t take any form of medication or vitamins without consulting my doctor, I
have cancer, she declared in a very subdued tone.

My heart sank for this lady whom I did not know and would probably never see again and I flash
back to two years ago, when we lost my dad to the dreaded C.

At this point, I couldn’t help but join the exchange.
Excuse me Ma, if you don’t mind my asking, how old are you?
The lady: Sixty-six years she said.
Me: Wow! Sixty-six I exclaimed! I had placed you ten years younger. You look really good for your
age and if you had not said so, no one would have guessed that you are struggling with such a
burden. How have you managed to keep yourself from falling apart or giving in to the “Why me”
victim mentality, I inquired?
The lady: My faith she said. Even my doctor is surprised. I have another round of chemo next week
and I want to tidy up myself before then. It tends to make me very tired afterwards. I just wanted to try
something different whilst I still have my hair. It’s either I choose to let go or I choose to Let God and
since I choose to Let God, somehow I find the strength to go on with my normal life.
I nodded in agreement. I could only try to imagine what she must be going through based on
my own experience with my dad and if a new hair look will perk up her spirits, then, why not indulge
for as long as she can?
Me: You know Ma’am, these days so many people would question your upbeat attitude in
the face of your adversity and they will be hasty in telling you that God does not exist and if indeed
he does exist, why does he allow bad things to happen to people?
In that calm, accented voice that I found interesting, she stated: I rather live a simple life as right as I can
with faith that there is God, than a life filled with splendor but without faith in God.
With all that said, she paid for her items, I paid for mine and we both left the store.

I wished her well and continued to my car. For several minutes, I sat there mulling over her words. Could faith
really play a huge role in our attitude towards challenges that come our way? Is there any
correlation between faith, healing and success?

I do not have all the answers, but I choose to have just a “snippet of faith”.

Jacqueline Oby-Ikocha

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Now, why did I start this blog I ask myself? Just to share my quirky tales and thoughts as well as get to know yours. It’s not all ironed out yet, but what is life without a few wrinkles, I ask? So lets hobble along, tell some tales, read some minds, drink some wine and have some fun. Who knows? We just might end up making a perfect medley of this and that!