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My Words Escaped…

jacquelineobyikocha

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Many times, I logged on, but I failed to say anything. Words milled around in my head, but they couldn’t transport to my fingers.

Where would I start? Is it the fact that I had a heart-stopping couple of weeks when I felt a suspicious bump in my bosom buddy? I was scared shitless!

I wondered about how I would have to start putting my house together and preparing my children for their journey through life without me. My thoughts were morbid. I was seized with fear. The emotions that raced through me were on another level. I couldn’t give words to them lest they took physical form and wings.

The visit to the doctors was nerve-wracking, to say the least, and I won’t bore you with the details, but I must tell you that I did a lot of soul-searching, had leaky eyes, ugly-cried and clutched my beads as I bargained with God.

Thankfully, fate has been merciful. The results came back. My Boobs are well. There is nothing to be alarmed about. Phew!

I felt guilty and not so guilty for having neglected my blog. My mind and heart were not in the right place and I needed a breather to realign myself.

My blog is my second home and I’m quite attached to it to such an extent that I found it difficult to come in and be blase about things when there’s so much going on with me. The connection I have with this blog transcends my ability to describe it and I guess it’s because I’ve invested a lot of my time and emotions into it. Strangely, I don’t have such affinity with other social platforms that I use.

Every day I consciously remind myself of the things that matter and I am learning each day as I journey on my path that the most important lesson – which hammers itself into my cranium – is that every moment we have been given is absolutely precious with a capital P.

I missed all of you.

Published by jacquelineobyikocha

A wordsmith with a vivid imagination, an eager mind and a burning desire to carve out tales. As I journey with my muse to that land of all possibilities and self discovery, I hope my personal evolution will serve as a beacon of inspiration for anyone who chooses to stop by.

19 thoughts on “My Words Escaped…”

  4. So glad to hear that you are healthy. You never know when tragedy may strike. I just lost one of my best friends to a heart attack while on vacation in Aruba last week. He was just 61 years old. I am still in shock.

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    1. Thank you, Charles. One never really knows when tragedy will strike which is why it’s terribly important to live our best lives as much as possible. I am so sorry for your best friends’ passing. Do take heart. Only time will ease the pain.

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  9. Hi Jacqueline! I’m sorry I don’t visit often. Days are so full of things to do, but that shouldn’t be an excuse. Right now, I’m so happy to hear you are doing alright, more especially after such a scare. Take care! ā¤

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