April is over and out, the first quarter done and dusted. As always I reflect on everything and nothing. I am learning that as a human being that all I can truly do each day is to give the best of my best. Yet there are days that my best falls below par and my head hammers at me that I’m not doing enough, but my heart keeps still and asks for harmony.
There are those days when the vagaries of life dictate the pace of my thought and actions even when I don’t want them to be so. Trying to live a purposeful – focused life has many positive fruits but can also come at a cost.
Those ambitions that faithfully dog my step and grasp my heart fail to let go. Instead, their demands to be achieved increase and there many times that I feel strong and know that I can do it all, yet there are many of those shaky moments when I wonder if I am being a fool for aspiring for so much?
I have been doing all that I do afraid, but with faith. Yet, I’m equally worried that I may never get it right but never worried enough to willingly stop trying.
I know without doubts that there are many like me. Those whose ambitions keep their thoughts racing and their hearts thumping in excited prospects, at the same time they are nervous at the thoughts of failing. I’ve failed in many things in my life, but for the life of me, I am never going to give up on my aspirations.
It may seem like a fool’s dream to want to succeed when one feels like they are between the Spring and Autumn of their lives. Someone, please tell me that I am not a fool having a mid-life crisis of wanting dreams that appear too tall to reach.
© Jacqueline Oby-Ikocha
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Your are not a fool. You are wise and ambitious and thats important. It is important to try each fay to be ones best self. Thanks for this frank, honest and truthful piece. I totally reasonate and thank you for sharing.
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Given the unlimited nature of our God and our universe, a reality sans any restrictions, how can any human mind know with certainty that it has “gotten it right?”
I think that the best any of us can do is work toward being good stewards of the gifts we have been given and, having done all that we can, be able to let go when our stewardship of the whatever ends and becomes the responsibility of someone else.
We don’t have to explain our actions to God, He knows.
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Great piece! A stark reality of life and existence and no, you are no fool. A fool can’t possibly have dreams and goals and seek ways to fulfil them. A fool wouldn’t be this articulate, intellectual and making sense to the WP community in very unique and amazing ways. You are a great personality with good skills and judgement, and personally, you have impacted in me in so many profound ways. Thank you for being real Jackie. God bless you. 🙂
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A very good post. I enjoyed reading it. Thanks for sharing!
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You are certainly no fool Jacqueline. To give up long-held or cherished dreams without seeing them to the end on the off-chance that you might fail would only be soul-destroying for an ambitious person like you. The thing that encourages me sometimes is learning that Thomas Edison failed over 1000 times before succeeding at producing the lightbulb.
And celebrate your achievements along the way – you apparently have a supportive husband and lovely, loving family – something which many who are rich and famous do not achieve! You are also a very successful blogger in my eyes.
The words you’ve penned could have been written by me and probably represent the feelings of many who are striving for success on their terms. You’ve just been bold enough and honest enough to share your thoughts and concerns.
Thank you for sharing. And be encouraged. You are a lovely lady, whom I much admire!
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Hey I’m in the Autumn of my life and still hopeful of tasting success
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As you know, my brain often thinks in songs. So here is one for you, “Fairy tales can come true, it can happen to you, if you are young at heart.” Keep the faith Jacqueline.
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Spring, summer, autumn, winter, I really think it doesn’t matter. The little bug that makes us want to reach for more, be better, I think can be there always or just appear at any random time during a lifetime, then go away, then come back. What matters is that when it is there, you give it your best and have the confidence to go foward with it. There is no foolishness in that 🙂
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Keep following your dreams. They’re in your mind for a reason and sometimes they take on a different personality and come true in different ways. 🌹 🌻
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No, certainly not a fool! As long as we have breath there are opportunities for growth, learning, new goals and heights to aim for 🙂
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Jacqueline this is a post full of wise words. Loved it!
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I love the prayer. Keep going Jacqueline, some days the noise in our heads can over power us with doubts but listen to what’s in your heart and feel the fire in your belly because they are the true compasses and Gods way of letting you know you are on the right track. It’s not a midlife crisis, its an awakening to your true calling.
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“Someone please tell me that I am not a fool having a mid-life crisis of wanting dreams that appear too tall to reach.”
In actuality you already know, hence your title (or a portion, thereof): “So April is Done, and I’m No Fool”
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All along the post, I kept saying to myself, “This is me!” Thank you for the lovely article Jacqueline.
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Thank you too for taking the time to read it 🙂
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I think that the best any of us can do is work toward being good stewards of the gifts we have been given and, having done all that we can, be able to let go when our stewardship of the whatever ends and becomes the responsibility of someone else. They’re in your mind for a reason and sometimes they take on a different personality and come true in different ways.
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